What It Really Feels Like To Wake Up Spiritually (Not The IG Version)

Waking up spiritually is not the glamorous, photo-filtered, sage-in-the-air moment that social media often makes it out to be. It’s not a single revelation or a perfect morning where everything suddenly makes sense. It’s a slow, sometimes disorienting unraveling of everything you thought you knew.

You may find yourself questioning beliefs you’ve carried your whole life. You might sit in silence and realize you’ve been performing your identity instead of truly living it. You could go from feeling deeply connected one day to completely lost the next. That’s not regression. That’s part of waking up.

This process doesn’t always feel light. In fact, it often begins in darkness. Maybe you wake up to how much of your life was built on fear. Or how often you abandoned yourself to keep the peace. Or how many of your goals were rooted in trying to prove something to people who never really saw you.

It can feel lonely, because as your awareness expands, your connections may shrink. Some conversations no longer make sense. Certain environments feel heavy. And small talk becomes exhausting. You’re not better than anyone else. You’re just realizing how precious your energy is and how much of it you’ve spent on things that never truly fed you.

And then there’s the grief. The deep ache of realizing you’ve lived years—sometimes decades—without knowing who you really are. There’s beauty in the remembering, yes, but also sadness for the time lost. The truth is, spiritual awakening is not always a rising. Sometimes it’s a falling apart that makes space for something real to grow.

There will be days when you feel peaceful and centered, and days when it feels like you’re breaking in half. That’s not a contradiction. That’s a clearing. Because waking up doesn’t mean you’ve arrived. It means you’ve begun.

Pause for a Moment and Ask Yourself: What truth have I been quietly waking up to, even if I haven't fully understood it yet?